All tagged The view from my chair
Cravings can be unbearable. I remember being pregnant and craving steak. It was completely overwhelming and I wanted it for every meal. Okay, I know that is strange, but I was probably lacking some vitamin. There have been other seasons when I crave sugar. Now, I can see most of you smiling! I have found many of my cravings difficult to manage
I had lied. Plain and simple. Not sure why I chose to say what I did, but the truth was - I had not been honest. This wasn’t something I usually did, so it had quite the shock value to my heart. It wasn’t like there was even any good reason to say what I had said about “the towel”. It just spilled out of my mouth, like maple syrup falling over pancakes - fast and easy. Honestly, I was shocked at myself. Why? How come? I didn’t think I needed to impress her. She looked at me with a simple knowing look. You know the kind. It’s how your mom looked at you when you took the cookie out of the cookie jar and then said you didn’t. She said nothing
Standing in the middle of the Red Light District in Nagpur, India, I was the obvious visitor. My blonde hair stood out against the bright colors and dark haired residents. The ladies were gathering for some teaching in the center. One stepped to the front and started praying in a language I did not know. Somehow though, it didn’t matter because my heart simply joined in. Prayer and worship intertwined in a symphonic dance that carried me away. I could not understand the words, but my heart knew the rhythm and the one to whom we were with. There was one phrase though that grabbed my undivided attention.
My view from “The Chair” this morning - Psalm 63:6. I don’t know if menopause is synonamous with anxiety for any of you, but it has been for me. I have lots of younger friends that struggle with anxiety, but this season of my life has brought this new friend. Yes, you heard me right, I called “Anxiety” my “Friend”. Yep, I awake pretty much at least once a night, if not more and just lie there often gripped by anxiety.
Please don’t judge me, but see that bed? Yes, that bed right there in the photo above. The one with the super soft yellow blanket? This bed is one of my favorite places to cocoon. It is a place of solitude, rest, and rejuvenation. To be honest, it is also the place I run when I am weak; overwhelmed by circumstances; reeling from grief; and desperate to hear God speak to me. Where do you run when you are facing your giants? Let’s be honest, we all have them. I know, the world says not to show our weaknesses but I’m done hiding. Here is the plain and simple truth…I am weak and so are you.
