STAND, just STAND! - Ephesians 6:11
Finding itself loosed from the long imprisoned cage deep inside of my being, raw fear made its way slowing up to my heart. It perched like a gargoyle above a city taunting me to look at it. I knew just one glance would give it permission to enter and destroy the peace that reigned in my heart and mind.
Caught in an emotional hurricane, I could feel the intensity of this battle increasing by each text message that arrived. Here are a few of them, “You should’ve never created me.” Seconds later, “I want to die.” Moments after that, “I’ll be dead before the day is over anyways.” They continued for the next few hours, growing in verbage and pain. Escaping like a Houdini to the staff restroom, I perched on the throne and verbally started putting on my full armor. (Okay, I was whispering, but I was using my voice. Don’t want any of the students to think I’ve lost my mind.) I have learned that there is NO WAY I can keep myself upright and help this Loved One if I am not fully armed. Completing this invisible armor, I escaped outside to one of my favorite spots and just stood there in the rain proclaiming God’s peace, goodness, defeat of this slimeball, and plan for her life.
My Sweet Friends, the battle is real for me and you too. It is to easy to get swept away with the “what if’s” and “fear”. What do you do when you are facing this kind of stuff? I used to just try and be strong. Then when exhaustion took over, I would head to the shower for a good long cry and then to cocoon in my bed. Defeated and hoping for a reprieve. Six months ago, I started this new battle plan: 1. Run to Him. 2. Put my armor on. (Yes, verbally do this.) 3. Use my audible words to Surrender the battle to Him. 4. Stand. Levi Lusko’s new book, “I Declare War!” Is a must read.
I don’t always get it right and sometimes I don’t make it through all the steps, but I can tell you this. I am learning how to fight and if I can do this so can you. Will you join me?
Until We Chat Again,
Crystal
